Reader about 1.5 years ago I became aware that I was the victim of this sociopath. Although at that time I did not know the formal name for it. Up to that point in my life I was happily unaware of these types of people. I guess ignorance is indeed bliss. I completely disassociated myself from this individual then, and my life has improved immeasurably. Also I have learned to recognize sociopaths, only so that I may stay away from them. After reading the book “The Sociopath Next Door” which I believe does an excellent job of conveying to the layman the world of the sociopath, she is textbook Antisocial personality disorder. With a healthy dose of Narcissistic personality disorder just to make the bitch really fun to deal with.
Reader I have first hand knowledge that sociopaths are capable of things that are quite horrible. This particular sociopath has done things to me and to others that was so outside of the context of normal civil human behavior that I was truly unprepared to live in the reality of the sociopath. The behavior was indeed so shocking and the manipulations so cunning that it took me quite a while and much research to finally get to the bottom of things. And even when I did finally grasp the totality of the deceit and dishonor to which I had fallen victim, I was left with one pervasive question. And that was simply… Why? Why would another human do these horrible things to another? Why could I not see the treachery that in retrospect was displayed to me on a rather consistent basis? How could I not see evil…when evil was smiling at me from the other pillow? The answer I guess is that I had my own demon to face and that demon was the specter of co-dependency.
Now not to get to far from the main topic, Co-dependency, I come to understand, is the problem that occurs when a person gets so involved with another’s life and another’s problems that it affects their own judgment and they fail to put adequate thought to how the other person’s behavior transgresses their own morality, integrity, and sense of self respect. The co-dependent then allows, endures, and compromises themselves, all toward the end of helping that other person get better, or feel better. It is almost always a fruitless endeavor, and you lose yourself and your dignity along the way. This was a serious character flaw of mine that I freely admit to, understand, have taken, and continue to take steps to get past.
It is my non-professional opinion that the sociopath I was once involved with suffers mainly from “Antisocial Personality Disorder” APD, but that is unimportant. What is important is the behavior. And how that behavior manifested itself in my life. One of the most notable acts was when she signed me up to take her daughter to an overnight Girl Scout retreat. While I was teaching her then 8 year old daughter to row a boat, shoot arrows, and sing silly campfire songs, the sociopath was having a gang bang style sex party in my home with a bunch of strange men she solicited for the task. (Sociopaths crave stimulation and illicit sex is a favorite hobby for them I come to find out) (I have confirmed the events of that evening with 2 separate individuals… each unknown to the other) Reader this manipulation and treachery took months to plan and execute. It was not a flight of fancy, or a moment of weakness. It was cold, calculating, well thought out and nearly perfectly executed. Right up to the point of coarse where I found out about it. She also had various (and frequent) other infidelities during the coarse of the hellish time I knew her. Three others of which I have confirmed with one of those confirmations coming from the man involved himself. He is not perfect but I feel he is a good man that was lied to and manipulated like the rest of her victims. I have also confirmed with three of her various “boyfriends” that she cheated on them as well, in very similar ways as this.
This sociopath also carried out other con jobs, many outright boldfaced lies, theft, and other behavior befitting a miscreant that is far too vicious to mention in a polite letter, all while being able to keep a straight face and a pleasant smile. (Another characteristic of Sociopaths is that they are not burdened by any feelings of anxiety, conscience, or personal responsibility that normal healthy people feel towards each other, indeed they do not feel at all, all they do is want.) As the book I referenced indicates …all they are, are feral children all grown up that only exist to serve their own endless needs and desires, without the normal behavioral restrictions that a conscience and adherence to generally accepted societal norms provides.
She herself told me of the time in her past that she was involved with a man (that is now serving time for grand larceny) that took her to swingers clubs to watch her have sex with strangers. (Every intuition I had told me to get out of the relationship as soon as she admitted to this behavior, but I felt sorry for her and even more so for her child) This was the absolute wrong move because pity and or empathy are exactly the emotions that sociopaths prey on, exactly the goodness in you that they exploit and manipulate. Exactly how this type of evil invades your life.
Reader after I disassociated myself from this woman, many people came out of the woodwork to tell me exactly the levels of deceit I had unwittingly experienced, exactly and with many details of the dishonor she heaped upon me and my good nature. Others from her past that I have contacted responded and have corroborated similar behavior from their experiences that seem to be commensurate with her recent behavior that I bear witness too. And Reader as I said before, I know first hand of many, many more absolutely horrific events… some of which will always be the main regrets of my life.
Now my goal here is not to defame, only to stress the significance of this pattern of behavior. And I am well aware that if my assertions are false then this letter is libelous. I assure you that I have nothing legally to worry about, as the truth is the best defense for liable. As such, I can prove what I assert, so my position is secure. I stand ready to back up, and stand behind the assertions I make here if I must
Jodi will sow dishonor and chaos the rest of her life. If you know her I am quite sure she will make me out to be some sort of nut. She may even cry you huge crocodile tears in the process (any sociopath worth her salt will do this with ease) I am also quite sure that her argument will seem quite convincing, she is after all the most accomplished liar I ever hope to know. But when her truth is one day revealed to you. You will realize that I am not a liar. I hope that day you will be able to recognize that what will befall you was not your fault. That the problem you may be unaware of resides far outside of your control, and that the deceptions and manipulations are polished and complete, the result of a lifetime of practice, and the work of a disturbed mind and a very deceitful person. As a person of good conscience it is difficult to imagine living in a world of pure contrivance, a world where you exist only as a parasite feeding off the good will of others. But that is the life of the sociopath, that is Jodi’s life. The hardest thing for me was in understanding the why of what happened to me. I know now that in reality the only thing I could have done to help myself…was to get out far earlier than I managed to.
I know now that I was just an insignificant pawn in the sociopaths’ game, and once I found her out…she just moved to the next victim. There has been a long line of them, and I can document them, and even introduce you to them if you would like. And now that I understand the world of the sociopath, and I revel in my freedom from her hatred, the only trust I have left in her, is in her ability to educate people in the depths of dishonor, treachery, and human horror.
Heart of Darkness has nothing on this lying deceitful bitch.
My horror was intense!
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